Updated: Nov 18, 2020
I don’t remember this, but one night I sat down at the edge of my bed, piss drunk, and just fell backwards and passed out fully clothed. I’m sure many of us have been there. It seems harmless right?
The next morning, my partner texted me a photo with no supporting text. Just a photo of me passed out in bed. I was mortified. My eyes were scary half way shut, my mouth was wide open, drool everywhere — I was a pale overcast grey color. I looked like I was on my death bed, and I very much could have been if I didn’t sober up.
My partner was either trying to send me a passive aggressive message, or poke fun. Either way, it’s stuck with me ever since he sent it (4 years ago). I still think about that photo, hence this post. I never wanted to look at myself in that light again. That lifeless & mistreated body was not mine.
After two (short) years of an alcohol free lifestyle, I no longer panic the next morning — while texting all my drinking buddies saying, “please delete those photos of me flashing everyone”. Ughhhhh, the embarrassment.
Point of this post — give yourself a good look in the mirror today. Give your camera roll a deep dive and make sure you are proud of yourself TODAY. If you are not feeling good, tell someone. Call a friend. Google solutions. Take action. Text me.
If you are feeling golden, LOCK. IT. IN. Hug yourself. Dance in the kitchen. Write yourself a poem. Get sexy. Jump in the cold ocean. Be proud of how far you’ve come. You are a savage.